MOMS59

MOMS59…BLOOMNLOTUS

My spiritual path is starting to remember the ancestors. Religion is a part of my heritage. However, my mama was not religious, to me she was very spiritual. Mama was a woman of few words but when mama did talk it was pointful. Yup, straight to the point and meaningful. As I look back at my mama and as I now practice Buddhism I noticed that my mama seemed to have the characteristics of a bodhisattva. In my view mama was merciful, self-sacrificing, always calm, and loving to everyone. Mama was compassion, empathetic, but wise. Mama never went to church I might even say mama was a Humanist or from some Earth Tradition. I don’t know much about mama’s mom, my grandma Hannah she disappeared when my mama was 2-3 years old. Yeah mama believed in prayer. Mama just did not like the hypocritical and judgemental way of religious organizations the she came in contact with especially in her younger life. This did not stop her from remaining a mild mannered non drinking non smoking woman, other woman might have been jealous of in truth.

I think on reflecting back I am attempting and seeing that I am a lot like my mama. At mama’s memorial I said I would try to live up to her ways as I age and I found Buddhism. Buddhism has helped me with listening to myself feeling what I feel and moving on, like clouds in the sky. They form and dissipate. It is true I do feel different types of ways sad, happy, depressed but when I remember to stay in the moment and breathe slowly it becomes ok. I can then solve problems because my mind is clear from all the junk of the day. To not worry about the past, it’s gone-don’t worry about the future, it’s not here yet-now is all I really have and in this place of now I am alright. So with this said and with this experiential knowledge I attempt to enjoy every moment of my a life as a spiritual being in a human body ; By practicing my mindful sitting or practicing mindfulness in the things I do in everyday life, taking one slow breath at a time. Believe me it comes with training and discipline, 7 1/2 years. I see you and I smile to you always.

Then for me there is Kemet or ancient Egypt where I attempt to go back to my African roots through Spirit and experiential knowledge. It is very important to go deeper as deep as I can go to the soul and DNA in me. The DNA found in me is more Nigerian because I had noone to pass down traditions we just did life by mama’s way. So I am studying one of the African traditions of the continent. Praying for my ORi. To be a more good person.

MOMS59

BLOOMNLOUS